the last time

i was wearing black shirt today. this morning i wish that i could get a "C" on accounting, but i got a "D", i fall down when i see it, but i forced myself to keep my smile up while inside me was mocking own self because i don't understand accounting. i am still proud (a little) because i did it by myself.
i was bored, i feel like i wanted to go home early, but i have to do a group project, then i went home tiredly at 3pm.
i decided to sleep when i finally reach home, but i didn't sleep until my dad finished to talk to me about going to bandung. i get so excited because firstly i think about my cashrolva and my other pets. i finally asleep while i was listening take me home by the downtown fiction.
i suddenly wake up because i heard my mom called me with a sad voice. i freeze.
mom's uncle who i also called grandpa was hospitalized for 2 days, and i knew that directly when i wake up. last thing i heard from my mom was "kak, opa bandung meninggal..." i couldn't cry, but when i get into the bathroom, it was like a dream, i saw grandpa smiling at me in the mirror. that's hallucinations. i cried until my froggy eyes appear again.

grandpa, i am sorry i can't go to bandung tonight with mom and dad to see your face for the last time, but i will see you at the funeral.

goodbye grandpa, we love you ♥