Dear Parents

Dear mom & dad,

I am a grown up. I know I am not financially independent yet, but I am trying to be independent so i don’t have to beg and get money from both of you again. I know I am still super spoiled but sometimes I am tired. I am tired of being a daughter who always stay in a bird cage. I am a grown up but both of you still treat me like a kid. Go home before 10pm? What am I? Am I gold? A hidden treasure? Or an investment of your future? 

I can’t even express what I like and what I don’t like, cos every time I try to express something, mom blame me, or dad doesn’t listen to me at all. Dear mom and dad, who I can talk to? Who I can tell about everything I feel? Happy, sad, afraid, excited, fall in love, broken heart? Who I can share my thoughts with? I always feel judged before I can even talk. I know you love me, but this is not how you supposed treat me. You can’t always pick whatever best for me that suits you but not suits me at all. I am tired to be a good girl in front of the public and be a rebel girl behind. I am tired to cry alone, and the reason I cry the most of night are both of you who seems don’t or will never understand my feeling. You said “We as a parents are just doing our best for you and your future” but for me it feels like “My parents never told me how to grow up. They can took my happiness only to fulfill their prestige and you would call me ‘perfidious’ if i don’t obey your rules. I know i have to respect you as my parents but I less respected. I may be a super happy girl with loving parents that always love me and spoil me everytime in front of everyone but behind all of that... :’)