It Was Real!

Have you ever having a crush on someone like more than a year? If yes, well I wanna tell you my story. I'm having a crush with this guy since 4 years ago I think (I actually having too much guy-friends that I like but this one was unbelievable).
It began when me and my buddy, Habby tried random thing called find people who have 4 or more words in their name. We were in the class waiting for the lecturer to called our name one by one so they know we were attending their class. When the lecturer called a guy or girl who have long name, we practically look around to see who raised their hand so we recognize the person. Suddenly, this one guy catch my attention, he have a unique name, and I found this guy is CUTE! I can spent my time to steal a glance at him all day if I was bored, and sometimes Habby make it worst. Oh fyi, I was still in a relationship with my high school friend those day. I kinda feel guilty to have a crush on someone when I was already in a relationship with someone, but I was a very insecure person, so my mind was full of negative perspective. Because of that negative perspective I have for like 3-4 years, everything went worst than I thought, I shouldn't write this thing on public but it's okay because I won't mention my ex-boyfriend name.
I have an abusive relationship when I was in high school, so I was being used by him for many reasons (that was really hurt I swear), I tried to keep the relationship going but I was wrong because that's only make me miserable at best. I can't even break him up when I know he was cheating, and fyi again, my ex cheated on me for three times then the third one was worst because his girl have the same fucking birthday as me (those day I really want to change my birth date I swear), then because I was so insecure, I know his password and personal stuffs like that and I caught him bought a cake for her, and for almost four years my ex never buy me a cake even for my birthday, wow I swear I don't know why I am super stupid (mom, dad, I'm sorry), since the day he dumped me I swear to myself I'm going to cry myself a river and yes it was hard because I thought he's the one (and now I know why I have to balance myself to love myself first then love the others), my move on process was a little bit weird for "normal people" because I do what my ex told me not to do for three fucking years. Fangirling, yeah fangirling. Go judge me while you read this, it's okay. I did bad thing when I was still on my move on process, I talk to myself like "look dude, your relationship is not going to last for like 2 years, I swear for that!" and yeah, it happened. I count it, 1 year 5 months if I'm not mistaken, they break up and me? Just sit back, relax and enjoy the view. After that, I suddenly laugh really loud and enjoying who's laughing now by Jessie J, and I feel really evil those days, but I enjoy it, of course!

So, I enjoying myself fangirling over my old celebrities (mostly bands) crush and also new bands for almost a year and I have a lot of crushes, I hangout with more guys than I used to. This is why I love being single, I can go out with whoever I want to without feeling guilty. College friends, internet friends, and people I accidentally met, I'm glad I know them, but for some reason I kinda hate it because some of them are soooo pervert. Because of that, sometimes I'm being a mean girl, I hang them up when they ask me out. I'm a nice girl, I swear, but you can judge by yourself if you meet me in person.

Back to the guy I already have a crush on since I move to college. This guy is the boyfriend goals (for me, okay), so I casually search for his name on every social media I have then I found him, then I kind of fangirling when he followed me back, accept my friend request less than 24 hours. Can you feel me? Then days passing by, It was June, I saw him posted a picture of a crowds in Balai Kartini, and I can guess he watched Pentatonix, and I was like "Damn dude, it's Pentatonix oh my God!" then the conversation began on his moment in Path:

me: How was the show?!
him: *replied several days after* Hey sorry just read your comment, It was awesome! You didn't watch it? I think you usually never skip any concert
me: Well, I was so tired after watching JakCloth the other day, because Breathe Carolina and Our Last Night was there and they are one of my favorites too, so that's why I'm tired and I can't make it to Pentatonix.
him: Oh I see, umm Can I have your line id?
me: Sure, it's my line id *insert my line id here*

I filter people on my line application, so I didn't notice that he actually add me, I thought he was just asking me then done, but he's not.

It was Friday and I was in Padang to visit my parents who work there, then I saw my phone, he was in Singapore (exact: Universal Studio Singapore) with his family, and because I am the type of enjoying every theme park, I suddenly search through the friends recommendations on my line application, then I found him and without any hesitation I add him back and chat him like I'm in a rush.

me: *call his name excitedly* ex: "Tristaaaan!"
him: Hey Gia, why?
me: Is the Battlestar Galactica already operate like usual?
him: No, it's still under renovation
me: Ah okay :( Is there any new vehicle? Any exciting vehicle?
him: I think yes, but I don't get in the line because it was too long and really crowded, it's weekend and it's a holiday season.
me: Oh right, I forgot. Thanks anyway! Have a nice holiday for you :)
him: Thank you, have a nice holiday for you too :)

After that I feel I have a crush on him over and over again.

The next day, he chat me first, and it sounds like he's excited to chat with me because he's using an emoji, and ma hart ma sole was flying. Did I reply him? Of course! As fast as I could and yeah I'm being the nice girl I am because I have a crush on him for too long.
The conversation continue until the day he graduated on June 30, 2015. I was spending my morning with Nurin, Amelia, Rya, and Ka Azalia that day, then I decided to go to JCC where the graduation held because Ayi wanted to go there too for Puti, Gerry and Habby (actually to see my crush too). Ayi and I bought some flowers, I bought two for Gerry and Habby and Ayi bought for Puti.
Sadly, I couldn't find Gerry because he's already left and I couldn't reach Habby on his phone, I have two flowers (1 red and 1 white) I haven't give to anyone, then Ayi said she saw Fadel (my another crush since the first semester but never get clicked), so I rush myself to Fadel to give the flower I should have give to Gerry, and the conversation goes like this:

me: Hey Fadel, congrats on your graduation
him: Hey Gia! I didn't know you come, have you graduate yet?
me: No I haven't, maybe this November hehe. Oh here's a flower for you
him: Ah okay. Huh? What is this for? For me?
me: Of course for you, duh. Once again congrats!
him: Thank you so much Gia, uh sorry I have to go home early. Bye Gia, thank you!
me: Oh yeah, my pleasure! Bye.

I swear his smile is super enchanting.

After that, I went back to Ayi and she put her smile on her face signaling that she's happy to see me "did it" then she asked me did I see Habby or not, but yeah sadly I didn't see him, so I have one more flower to give. I suddenly remember I have to see my crush today before it's too late, and after I chat him to asked where he was, Ayi saw him first (again), then she excitedly told me that he was looking for me and she said "Why are you guys so cute looking for each other like that? Go say hi to him and let me take a pic of you two!" So I approached him but not directly because he was with his friends and I was shy, but after some of his friends left, I approached him and congratulate him directly (yes, I did it!), and for the love of God his smile is more enchanting than Fadel's.
He hold a bouquet of flowers and I was like I'm going to give you this just 1 flower and you hold a bouquet of flower I think I'm not going to give this flower but I have to because I think it's awkward if you see me bring a flower but don't give it to you, soo...

me: Hey, congrats on your graduation!
him: Thank you so much, and thank you for coming!
me: It's my pleasure, umm so here's a flower for you, sorry it's not big
him: Hey thank you, it's okay you don't have to do this actually
me: Nah, I bought it, for you hehe.
him: Thank you Gia
me: My pleasure *insert his name*

Then we kinda separated because my friends wanted to take pictures with me and he was going to take a picture with me but his friends approached him again.
After I finished taking pictures with my friends, I rolled my head to find him. It's not hard to find him because he's hella tall so I could see where he was standing. I checked my phone and I got a message from him that he wanted to take a picture with me before he left the building too. So I asked Ayi to follow me, so she could help me to took a picture with him.
After I approached him again, he introduced me to his little sister, which really look alike and I was like wow, this girl is really him in a girl figure. Then I tried to talk to her for awhile, I said "Oh, it's your sister? It's so obvious that she's beautiful, just like her gorgeous brother." Yeah okay, I was flirting but I am also praise his sister because I do see her like that, cute and beautiful also enchanting smile.
After taking too much pictures because Ayi captured us several times and I know she did it on purpose, but I thanked her anyway for that.
Then he left earlier, I saw him and his family walking through the building, and can you imagine a tall guy wearing suit and bow tie, then he released the tie while walking? Damn, that was a beautiful view I don't want to miss, I swear I fangirl over him hard that day!
Oh this is our picture together on his graduation day

Ok I know I look ugly but look at him

When it was my time to finish my whole thesis, I swear I was super lazy, but for the love of my parents I need to finish it. First, the trigger was 5 Seconds of Summer: Rock Out With Your Socks Out Tour 2015 in Perth, yes I watched them and I am incredibly happy even I didn't meet the band personally. Second, he asked me to accompany him to watch Ariana Grande: Honeymoon Tour 2015. Holly shit! I thought I'm dreaming because that was my very first time a guy asked me to go to a concert together, I couldn't even express how happy I was so I cried after he asked me.

this is a festival ticket, I just can't

I feel like the happiest girl on earth that day (as a fangirl too). Another thing that make it perfect was, my dad allowed me to go to a concert with a guy, I mean only me and a guy! I know it's probably just a regular thing to you but not for me, I never get a permission to go out with a guy, well I ever ask my dad but his reaction was not what I expected, so I never ask him until the day I wanted to watch Ariana Grande's concert, and my dad easily said yes (I was going to cry that day just because I heard my dad allowed me).

He also gave me a bouquet of flowers, twice. I am not a fan of flowers but if it's from someone you like/have a crush on/fall in love with, those flowers mean so much, so yes, he makes me fangirling hard over him.

this is the first one

this is the second one, also heavier

The second one he gave me when it was my graduation day on December 2015. As I said before, I am not a fan of flowers but if it's from someone you like, it mean so much to us, right?

What happen after that? 17 days after my graduation, he finally confess that he like me, I freaking love you okay. So we are now in relationship and I am happy to know that I got my boyfriend goals type.

Do you have similar story as I am?

college life was super fun

Hello, udah lama banget aku ngga nulis di blog ini. Kenapa? Seperti yang aku pernah share di post sebelumnya, aku ngulang proposal skripsi karena aku pernah kena sial yaitu telat masuk kelas saat ujian, jadi aku dilarang ikut ujian. Pedih banget, padahal saat itu ujiannya 6sks (semakin besar jumlah sks, semakin mempengaruhi IP), jadi karena kejadian ini, aku harus rela 1) mengulang penyusunan proposal skripsi, 2) IPK turun sedikit drastis 3) batal lulus 3,5 tahun.

Ternyata menjalani dunia perkuliahan itu lebih ribet daripada SMA, well aku banyak belajar tentang kehidupan juga saat kuliah. Mulai dari memilih antara teman belajar dan teman bermain, atau keduanya. Kejadian pertama, aku pernah sekelas sama teman cewek yang kuliah di Jakarta dan dia datang jauh-jauh dari Surabaya. Di kampusku banyak banget mahasiswa yang merantau dari sabang sampai merauke cuma untuk kuliah di Jakarta. Banyak dari teman-temanku yang merantau ini lebih malas daripada aku selama perkuliahan, tapi ngga sedikit juga yang rajin dan niat banget kuliahnya. Contohnya, teman kampusku yang merantau dari Surabaya ini, dia sekeluarga pindah ke Jakarta dan tinggal di apartemen di daerah Jakarta Barat yang jaraknya lumayan dekat dari kampus (bukan dengan jalan kaki ya). Dari awal perkuliahan, Echa selalu ngajak aku untuk duduk kursi paling depan atau paling belakang bagi dia adalah kursi di barisan keempat dari kira-kira delapan baris kursi. Awalnya aku ngga ikutin permintaan dia dan lebih memilih duduk di barisan kedua dari belakang bersama teman yang lain, eh lama-kelamaan (bahkan ngga sampe seminggu) aku ngerasa bosen banget dan sama sekali ngga konsentrasi untuk belajar. Maklum aku duduk bersama teman-teman yang lebih banyak ngobrol daripada mencatat atau setidaknya mendengarkan penjelasan dosen.
Akhirnya aku ikutin permintaan Echa untuk duduk didepan, dan hasilnya? Di semester 1 IPK-ku 2,9 not bad untuk sebuah permulaan.
Semester 2, aku ngerasa lebih semangat lagi, dan aku masih sekelas sama Echa, di beberapa mata kuliah yang memang kita ngga terpisah selama semester 2, aku dan Echa selalu satu kelompok, aku ngga pernah nyesel sekelas sama Echa, karena dia satu-satunya teman di kampusku yang ngga pernah berhenti ngasih aku motivasi untuk tetap semangat belajar. Karena ngeliat Echa yang semangat belajarnya ngga pernah hilang walaupun lagi capek, aku terpacu untuk tetap jadi anak kuliah yang rajin, dan emang terbukti, dalam sejarah perkuliahanku nilai IPK tertinggi itu di semester 2, umm dihitung keseluruhan sampai semester akhir sih ngga tinggi banget tapi 3,4 itu nilai IPK yang ajaib banget bagi aku.
Semester 3? IPK-ku turun drastis karena penjurusan aku dan Echa beda itu berarti aku sama Echa udah ngga sekelas lagi, ternyata pisah kelas sama teman yang rajin berpengaruh banget sama nilai akademis perkuliahan. Aku merasa kehilangan semangat belajar, dan aku termasuk anak yang agak sulit untuk beradaptasi dengan lingkungan baru setelah nyaman dengan lingkungan lama. Ya contohnya di semester 3 ini aku merasa paling bodoh karena ngeliat teman-teman baru terlihat pintar semua (memang iya sih). Dan hal lain yang bikin aku agak sulit untuk beradaptasi sama teman-teman baru di semester 3 itu adalah tampang teman-teman cewek yang terlihat jahat dan teman-teman cowok yang tampangnya sangar. But in the end of the third semester I did it! dengan IPK average.
Semester 4 sampai semester 6 itu adalah semester yang bisa aku bilang jatuh bangun. Kenapa? Jelek banget sih alasannya, aku diputusin hahahaha (laugh it off because it's hurtly funny). Namanya juga cewek, kalo diputusin hidupnya berasa runtuh seruntuh-runtuhnya, bener kan? Lebih lucunya lagi, I was really really stupid because my ex cheated on me 3 times and I am still being kind to him, holly shit. Maka dari itu, nilai akademisku naik-turun deh.
Semester 7 bener-bener menguras energi lahir batin bagi anak kuliah, ini semester sakral bagi mahasiswa yang mau beresin kuliah selama 3,5 tahun dan aku termasuk salah satu mahasiswa yang gagal beresin kuliah selama 3,5 tahun karena telat masuk kelas, jadi aku ngga diizinkan untuk mengikuti ujian. Tapi aku berusaha ngga menyesal karena istilahnya nasi sudah menjadi bubur, mau diapain lagi? Dari situlah aku harus mengulang pengajuan proposal skripsi, yang dimana saat aku mengajukan proposal skripsi dan kalo aku ngga telat aku pasti sudah setengah perjalanan bimbingan skripsi.
Semester 8 itu aku bisa sebut semester malas karena di semester 8 kalo ngga ada semester pendek (sayangnya aku kena semester pendek), ke kampus itu hanya untuk bimbingan skripsi, tapi emang yang namanya skripsi ngga bisa main-main deh (walaupun aku sedikit main-main juga) but thank you God I passed :(
Saking namanya semester malas, kalo mahasiswa itu diberi waktu sekitar 4 bulan untuk bimbingan skripsi, what I did? aku baru mulai bimbingan skripsi 2 bulan menjelang pengumpulan skripsi, ya bagus sekali (ps:sumpah ini jangan ditiru! apalagi kalo dosen pembimbingnya killer, mati aja ngulang skripsi di semester 9).

Jadi pelajaran yang bisa aku petik dari kejadian diatas adalah:
1. Pilih-pilih teman di kampus (teman belajar, teman bermain, atau campuran keduanya)
2. Perbanyak teman/relasi di kampus, ini berguna banget buat kedepannya
3. Rajin-rajin mencatat setiap mata kuliah (I did this because I realize I'm not that smart)
4. Duduk di barisan depan kalo merasa ngga ngerti sama mata kuliahnya (don't be shy!)
5. Cari kelompok anak rajin buat belajar bareng (biar ketularan rajin)
6. Jangan nyesel kena semester pendek, jalani aja (because of this I am able to watch One Direction concert at GBK on last March 25)
7. Just have fun because adulthood is more complicated and you're going to miss college life so much!

Derpcon: A Year Ago

What is derpcon? Okay, before you ask, derpcon is a convention held by 5 Seconds Of Summer. YES, my favorite band until today and maybe until I don't know. In this convention, every 5SOSFam in every country who is lucky to be chosen as the winner could bring one of their friend to join them to have fun with 5SOS for two/three days.
Have fun with 5SOS including:
1. Return flight tickets for free
2. Concert ticket for free (5SOS concert of course) in Los Angeles! <3
3. Everything for free

What more fun is...... I win the derpcon contest! Wait, just kidding, I didn't win. My friend won, her name is Joey and Bilqis, you can check out Bilqis's instagram full of her own drawings here and Joey's twitter here (actually that's a fan account they run together).
Then why I write about this stuff if I didn't win the contest? Well, fyi one day before she (Joey) leave to LAX, I gather myself to ask her for help, I know it was a little bit awkward but I did it. I bought an eggplant doll which I bought it at Toys Kingdom, Grand Indonesia. When the first time I saw this doll, I have a strong feeling that I can't win this competition, so I just want to buy something that maybe I could give to them (actually I just want to give something to Ashton, because he's my favorite from 5SOS) but of course I love Luke, Calum and Michael too. So without future thinking, I grab one of those doll, then I saw a banana doll but I recognize they already have the similar one, then I asked my dad about it because I have too many dolls in my room, so I need his acceptance. I even told him why I want to buy this doll. It's kinda like this "dad, since I am 100% sure that I can't win this 5SOS competition, I want to buy this doll and I will ask whoever the winner is to give this doll to Ashton Irwin, please?" Once my dad allow me to buy this eggplant doll, I rush myself to the cashier then thank God I have it, I bought the doll (believe me, I was about to cry that day).

Okay, back to the day when I was about to deliver this eggplant doll name Lilo to Joey. She was at school when I want to meet her, so I went to her school which is so far away from my home (for Indonesian people who read this I live in Jakarta Selatan and her (Joey) school is in BSD Tangerang). I only talked, I mean texted her via twitter because I can't even remember to ask her phone number to make it easier for me to reach her. When I arrived at her school, the signal was so poor and I almost run out of battery and the worst part is I didn't bring my charger.
I waited for her to go out of her class like two hours or even two hours and a half, but God is good, I and Joey made a deal because she suddenly can't meet me on time. I gave the doll and a letter to the security there and asked her (the security) to give the doll and the letter to Joey.
Yeah, you all can guess that I and Joey never meet each other face to face, even until the day I write this.
Joey direct message me via twitter to make sure the things she receive was all from me, she took a picture of her holding Lilo and she said "this is so cute!"  And I feel happy about it.

The next day, I woke up late. Then I remember Joey and Bilqis was already on the plane fly to one of the country in my bucket list.
Like some of girls nowadays, the first thing I did when I wake up was checking up my phone and I look at my tumblr notification, it was from Kania, one of my first concert friends who trapped in 5SOS world and we don't know the way back. She tagged me on a picture (a fan-art), and the picture look like this

(source: http://ohemmoh.tumblr.com/post/102822269370/boy-and-eggplantpenis)

Yep, not gonna lie it's real, I repeat, IT'S REAL!!

I was shaking, Kania said to me "Is this the sign the boy already received your eggplant doll???" Then I just sat on my bed, can't stop murmuring oh my god. Then when I can handle myself, I reblogged this fan-art with "i don't know :') ok i'm shocked" 

After several hours of a little bit anxiety, Joey send me a message via twitter.

 

 If you're not Indonesian, the conversation goes like this:

me: did you give the doll to ashton? thank you so much joey&bilqis

joey: HE TWEETED IT

joey: IN INSTAGRAM

joey: WHEN I GAVE IT, HE HUG ME REALLY TIGHT

joey: IT'S CRAZYYYY :")

joey: CRAZYCRAZYCRAZY, LUKE HUGGED THOSE DOLL INTO THE BUS

me: i just saw it on their ig, this morning i cried :') thank you so much, if it's not because of the two of you, those doll will never be on their hands :')

me: did u give it to luke or ashton?

joey: YES IT WAS LIKE THEY WAS FIGHT OVER THE DOLL. 

joey: I GAVE IT TO ASHTON 

joey: BUT THEN LUKE TOOK IT FROM HIM

joey: THEN HE HUGGED ME

me: <you can read it>

joey: YOU HAVE TO BE PROUD OF IT (ps: "kakak" is a verb for someone who is older than you, we don't use gender to call someone)

joey: they literally said "this is the best thing i've ever seen" (ok I was crying when I read it)

me: I have no regret I found those doll and buy it and give it to you to give it to ashton

me: I am so mushy crying in my house right now

me: did you give the letter too?

joey: yesss

joey: i cried too :")

joey: cried so hard, they laughed at me

me: why they are so annoying :')

joey: the staff was laughing at us when we were outside

me: hahaha those staffs don't understand that you were really happy :'D

OKAY I'M REALLY SORRY FOR THIS LONG CONVERSATION BECAUSE I AM JUST SOOO EXCITED TO REMEMBER IT :')

Like.... the fact Ashton himself took a selfie with Lilo Penisilo (I named it with Kania after Ashton said that Lilo kinda looks like a penis)

(source: https://instagram.com/p/veeIbpqS_8/)

The picture above I got from his Google+ a year ago, so it doesn't look cut.

Luke also love this doll :') you can watch the video of Luke and Michael with Lilo here

I am a happy fan :)

Keep Myself Alive

It's been two weeks since I started my new semester in my college (not new actually, because I am already in the 7th semester). Time flies so fast, I remembered how my index of achievements went down when I was in the 3rd semester because I lost my friendly and clever friend who have been my motivation since day one I got into college, her name is Patricia, but people called her Echa. I think she is really an angel for me, she really into all self improvement while everyone are still think college life is easy because you only have to be in college less than 8 hours in one day, go home, don't have homework or anything, but she's different. She keep me away from laziness. We were separated in college because I took Business and Organization major and she took Entrepreneurship major, so we never be a classmate again since the 3rd semester until now. That was the first time, then my index of achievements went down again last semester because I broke up with my boyfriend (technically he broke me up), it felt like I was sewing my own heart to heal myself then he ripped it again, well go ahead ripped my heart out if you think that what's love all about. He fall in love with someone else, so I can fall in love with someone else too. Now i am sewing my good story with my family again, because when I was in a relationship, I wasn't spending my time with my family that much, I mean I did spend my time with my family but I'm not into it, like I'm not enjoying my time with my family. So, I am trying to spend my time with my family as much as possible, with my mom, my sister, especially my dad, because it's been a rough time for me and my dad, we didn't talk much and he gave me a silent treatment for about 3 days I think, or I can say it felt like one week! Can you imagine? I can't even speak to him even when my dad was in the same room with me, I felt like a wind, you can feel it but can't see it. I was really sad, and I just wanted to lock myself in my room, I can't even eat because I lost my appetite whereas I love to eat, I felt I am not myself that day, I lose weight without even trying to do a diet, I kept vomit after eating something. That was terrible.

Another heartbreak story, I have to make another proposal for my thesis, which mean I work twice for this damn proposal, I have to wrestle with this thing for about 3 months. I am so down. To make this proposal I have to find a problem which relate to my major, second, I have to find an enterprise which relate to my problem and then I have to ask for an internal data from them for further activities because I have to process the data to find an answer and make a conclusion about it, What a struggle for a final level student. Damn, you better work it, bitch.

But in the other hand, happy things come along. My dad was right, if we are sad, just pray, God will listen to you even He doesn't give you what you want, you will get what you need even when you're not realize. "Nothing last forever, kid" My dad said. "When it is your time, it is your time." I make friends with plenty of boys and they seems nice, and I am thankful for that.
Maybe I should appreciate every little thing more.

Quote by Tianna Kavanagh

Happy Graduation, Sister!

Hello, my hand is actually want to type today, so here's the story...

On June 21, 2014 I woke up really early by myself because my dad wasn't home for 10 days for work and i miss him so badly. I cried when I wake up, it's a rare moment for me because I never miss my dad this much, because every morning he always send me a good morning text and remind me to always be thankful for everything. It's almost a week since the last time my dad reply my text, but I believe he is okay out there.
After several minutes of sad moment, I suddenly smile because my alarm wake me up with She Looks So Perfect song. Gotta get up, girl!
16 minutes showering... then I fell asleep again until mom shout my name from a far, girlll, wake up! today is your sister big day, wake up!!! so I rush myself to the bathroom and once I stepped my foot inside, I realized that I already take a shower. Damn you girl!

Prepare, prepare, prepare! My sister have to wear kebaya or batik, so my mom mixed it. She wear a kebaya on top and long skirt batik on the bottom, you look beatiful, sister! <3 How about me and mom? Mom decided to wear a blouse with a kind of jegging or jeans with a legging material and I'm wearing a mini batik dress, why? because I'm getting skinny booyaaah!

We went to this bulding

I'm not taking the picture, okay.

It gets me the feeling when I was graduated here back in 2011, oh my it's already 3 years ago! Fuck 3 years.
Nothing change since the last time I'm here with my high school friends, yeah the elevator still a small size which is only 5-6 person inside for an average size. (sorry I can't find the picture)

I met my teachers! Mr. Samsul (chemistry teacher), Mr. Ali (ICT teacher), Mrs. Sri (history teacher), Mrs. Aris (economy teacher), Mr. Tarwan (P.E. teacher), Mr. Parman and Mrs. Erika which are my sister's teachers on Junior High. Don't think I can miss them so much! Time is running so fast. Well, life goes on and can wait for another heaven & hell chapter in my life.

I feel so touch when the MC called my sister's name, she get through Elementary School and Junior High with a lot of struggling. It's just like me, but I hope her struggle is going to be more easier than mine. And I remembered that the MC mention dad's name too ....daughter of Mr......, my tear fall down a little. How I wish my dad was there with me and mom watching my sister graduate from Junior High. Dad, your daughter get through it! :)

This is her in front of the stage

Once I tried to make a video when she walked into the stage, but I'm bad at making video, so a picture would be better.

The auditorium is so full, and for a graduation like this I really recommend just go to my uni because it's damn a lot larger than this auditorium. I should post the full image of the auditorium of Bank Indonesia but then again I can't find the real picture of it, so I just gonna post my uni's auditorium

Welcome to Binus University Auditorium, darling! We call it a mini blitzmegaplex with a stage.

Believe it or not, kids right now are so damn fast to grow up! There's a lot of berondong manis in the building and it's dangerous! Bahaha, no kidding! It's good to see a freshman candidate of university ;) especially boys (yes because I'm a girl, bitch).

So, happy graduation Anggi! Be good, be wild, and sassy at the same time ;)

Sorry for my ugly face here, I was sleepy as hoe working so hard to serve guys until dawn.

Dark Side

How if someone you know, your best friend, the one who always make you laugh, the one who always make a humor just with the expression they made suddenly appear to be someone else? I mean someone else you don't know. S/he changed 180 degrees from s/he used to be.

Dark side,
You know s/he were so kind and cheerful, but that was yesterday. Now you see her/him seems different. What happened?
You didn't even know what s/he is going through, you want to know, but it's too late. S/he changed.

Dark side,
S/he is not the one you know, even those days you know it's her/him. S/he hate you for the reason s/he cannot explain or it is you that cannot understand her/him. Tell her/him you still know her/him, if you really know them, because it's your best friend.

Dark side,
Sometimes, s/he is still her/himself but you just can't get the differences because you are not sure whether it is her/him or someone else which you really don't know.

Dark side,
S/he keep ignoring you, and keep doing badass thing to you, like s/he want to do a revenge. Her/his eyes changed color as s/he being the dark side

WAKE UP!

City of Angels

This is a song by Thirty Seconds To Mars. I really into this song nowadays, this song is my medicine and my serenity in every situation.
You can listen it here

There was truth
There was consequence
Against you, a weak defense
Then there's me, I'm seventeen
Looking for a fight

All my life I was never there
Just a ghost running scared
Here our dreams aren't made–
They're won.

Lost in the city of angels
Down in the comfort of strangers
I found myself in the fire burned hills
In the land of a billion lights

Bought my fate straight from hell
Second sight has paid off well
For a mother, brother and me

The silver of a lake at night
The hills of Hollywood on fire
A boulevard of hope and dreams
Streets made of desire

Lost in the city of angels
Down in the comfort of strangers
I found myself in the fire burned hills
In the land of a billion lights
I found myself in the fire burned hills
In the land of a billion lights
(Of a billion lights, of a billion lights, of a billion lights...)

Angels
Angels

I am home, home, home, home

Lost in the city of angels
Down in the comfort of strangers
I found myself in the fire burned hills
In the land of a billion lights

One life, one love live
One life, one love live
One life, one love live
One life, one love

The city of angels
The city of angels
The city of angels
The city of angels


This is the most personal song that they ever written.
Jared Leto, the singer made statements about this song, he said "it's the story of my brother and I going to Los Angeles to make our dreams come true. It's a love letter to that beautiful and bizarre land."
He also explained that the song could refer to any place where a person go to fulfill his own dreams.
He stated, "That was a very personal song, obviously, about a specific place: Los Angeles. But it could be... well, when I was a younger kid, it was New York City. That was the place where I went to make my dreams come true, at that time to be a painter, an artist. I was in art school and New York was the place where you went to makes those things come alive. And as I got older, I started studying film and I came out to Los Angeles. But it could be Paris, it could be Shanghai, it could be San Francisco, Palo Alto, anywhere. A place where you go to realize yourself and your dreams."

For me, this song is so beautiful. When I get older, I want to travel the world, that's my dream! I don't want to have kids in the age of 20ish, I hate baby for now, because I still want to know the world before I and boyfriend someday getting married, so getting married IS NOT the no. 1 on the list.

For every girl who (maybe) read this post, GO TRAVEL THE WORLD you bitches! Because we don't know when we die, but the world is for us to travel, to learn about people, learn about culture, learn about differences, learn about everything and get experience that can never be bought. I know, I know, I myself have never go to Los Angeles, but someday I will be there.

And if you don't have a boyfriend/girlfriend to travel the world with, just be a lone traveler or ask your best friend to join you so you can share the experience with them.

Don't forget to realize yourself, dream everything that is POSSIBLE to achieve!